If You're Reading This.....Can You Feel It?

It's Just The Feel

Is it really cliche.....that I want flowers just because it's Wednesday?

Is it corny of me to want a guy to take my backpack when he decides to walk with me?

Am I stuck up for wanting to be asked out to dinner or a movie instead of netflix and chilling?

Am I to be considered a BITCH because I'm tired of "wyd" text at 2AM?

Does it make me lame to have my own standards of being courted?

Should you call me crazy for really wanting to fall in love?

Nowadays things are so fucked up.

I can't remember when I have met a guy or any guy that met me and asked me on a real date...

oh my damn I've never went out on a real date.....

What makes that statement ever sadder, is the fact that their are probably thousands of other women who haven't either.

As a woman I don't want a man to deal with me solely off of my looks. My ass isn't huge, my hair isn't down my back, my waist have never been a size 2, and I'M NOT FOREIGN.

It took me 24 about to be 25 years but I have so much more to offer than my exterior. EVERY woman does, I don't know how but it seems like we only find value and love based off these hardcore standards set by men.

 hey should treat us? What we need to attract them, and how they should love us?

We as women have so much power individually, we need to realize it and use it.

We need to take our power and set our standards for ourselves and how we want to be loved.

We deserve that and so much more.

I can't be the only person tired of  being courted through Instagram and Facebook. The constant compliments or your body and all the things they want to do to it. The inconsistency, the "hey stranger" text. Being Queen material and pushed towards the jump off. Showing sides of you that nobody has every seen and it being unappreciated. The fake I love you's. The selfishness of only being able to receive a call when a dick is hard. LIES. The thought of being the only one and realizing you aren't even close to number 5. The games. One day your all they want, next day they can't answer the phone. Always wanting but can't ever give. Feeling everything but LOVE.

Someone who actually meets me and asks me about myself. Genuinely has interests in what makes me tick. Curious about what matters most to me and what I'm looking for in a potential someone. Hell, a person who seriously wants to hear how my day went.

I can't say I know what love is but I know how I want it to make me feel.

Of course I want someone to look at me and say, " She's Beautiful."

I want to be beautiful because he SEES me. When I say me not my face, my soul. I want him to fall in love with the fact of my sincerity, I want to know him. He can see that I don't need him to love me because I have truly fallen in love with myself. He understands that anything worth  having must be worked for. My LOVE. When we disagree, we can still laugh it out. He accepts my goals and won't try to change them to suit his needs. He believes in me and vice versa. He can teach me and I can teach him. Spontaneity. When i'm not around I want him to think about me because I'm thinking of him. T'rust, I don't want the code to your phone. Acknowledgement. Proud to say that he is mine and I his. Never have to question whether he's in this for real or still deciding. NO doubts. I want to feel his soul, when I look into his eyes I want to be home. SAFE. No completing each other but Complimenting because individually we are complete within ourselves. Foundation, built strong from day one. Dancing in the rain. Willing to try things for me. A friend I've had forever. A rush. Someone for me only. THE FEEL.

It may just be me but it hasn't been too many, but the guys I have dealt with....I didn't feel IT. I don't know exactly how to explain the feel but I know I haven't felt it. Maybe that why people say, "When you fall in love you'll know. You can feel it."

Black Love

My first poem.

Because seeing you during the day feels like a victory

That smile....it just does something to me

The tone of your voice touches my crown and down my spine

I think the alignment is more than mine

Because we never touch and that's just fine

No need for the physicality's, we connect with our minds

The words we share are so inviting we get wrapped up with conversation so enticing

I see the sun shine on your chocolate skin

Even under the moon I see that glow from within

The Queen in me wants you to know I'm proud of you forever

Being a Black King despite the storms, you always hold it together

By your side to love honor and cherish

You gave me the world even before marriage

Being with you is like a dream come true

Because with you I got my black love and my Warrior King in you

So cliche but I'd shout it from the mountain top

Til my heart stops...because it's so real

Black King & Black Queen their is no better deal

Our love

Black love

Forever and a day

Always

In all ways.

- Esoquarian

Poem of the Week: Intertwined Entities

Intertwined Entities

Imagine us, wide awake, in the dead of night, the moon

serving as our only light, peering through the blinds it shines 

on your brown skin.

I salivate art the glistering temptation, unleashing a mischievous grin, my heart aches with the urge to kiss your lips, revisiting the familiar territory of your beautiful brown skin.

Sweet chocolate delight, what a precious sight, as we absorb each other's energy, I melt from the hypnotizing radiance traveling through my chakras. Her vibration is an uncontrolled force charging relentlessly through my guarded magnetic field.

With each kiss, she awakens my soul sending my spirit on a euphoric trance, our inhalations begin to deepen like gaping shallow waters of the ocean existing inside of me, mentally I'm exploring her frequency as our eyes lock, gravity pushes our bodies closer together, I drown angelically in her multidimensional galaxy of passion, mangled in a blissful daze of unsolicited affection, her intoxicating aura fills my lungs and she becomes the air that I breathe, our lustful desires intensifies as we reach new erotic heights, we indulge sensually in the pleasurable arena of pure love.

Admiring the glorious sight, of my sweet chocolate delight....

By: Nikole

From: DMV 

Twitter: @ne0ntrees_

Instagram: @ne0ntrees

To read more work from this Queen click here!

Interview with the artist

When interviewing queen Nikole i asked her what was her motivation or inspiration for her featured piece. I like the audience to first build their own interpretations of the work before it is explained. I think when people view or read art they have their own ideas and find reasons to connect that refer to personal situations. This makes the whole experience so much richer. I personally was excited for this piece because as a black women I am all about the BLACK GIRL MAGIK!

"I chose this piece to share because it was written with admiration for black woman who was the perfect muse! I want to showcase the magical abilities of black women and the intensity of their passion. I want the audience to grasp and relate to the beauty of vulnerability and mutuality of black women."

Thanks to this Queen for sharing her work and thank everyone who came through to read it. Remember all works are welcome to be featured on my blog. If interested you can send your work through the following:

Twitter: @blackgyalmagic

Instagram: @black.gyal.magic

Email: dshouchins@gmail.com

Much Love : )

Artwork of the Week: Passion in the Ocean

Passion in the Ocean

By: Chaé-Kymani 

Instagram: @Artwizz_srd

The artist happens to be a cool Instagram follower of mine. One of the reasons I like Instagram, because it links you with so many people from different places that are into the same things you are but have a different experience of life. 

When asked about what inspired him to create his piece I got a reply I wish most men would have in their heads. " I feel like the female is art." If you really get deep enough and think, we really are. Just think a second about what all we as women can do, what we do! 

I asked what the picture represented because art means something different to every pair of eyes that set and admire the work. I'm sure some eyes just see a couple embracing each other in the water or for the common mind just making out." The ocean represents the life and vitality we can give to one another when we love each other. The sun is the constant light we radiate when we are in harmony with each another. Then you have the lovers in a perfect unison. The fact that they are pretty deep in the ocean is also symbolic. It shows how deep two people can connect no matter how deep they fall. It's basically the perfect relationship." 

Instead of just posting the work I wanted to interview. I wanted to share the creative feel for the piece. I think once a person understands the meaning behind the artwork they are viewing the connection becomes deeper. The appreciation for the time and effort is brought to a whole new level. 

I was hype when he sent me the piece but after getting a better understanding I love it because I feel it. I have a strong personal tie and thoughts when it comes to love. This is work I would place on a wall in my home to remind me and represent the love I want to have and keep one day. 

I hope you all enjoy the homies artwork as much as I did. If so look forward to more coming from him in the future. Thanks for sharing my dude, much love : ) ! 

Swim Good...

This something I want but don't think I will ever get. past experiences just make it so hard to trust, when you do it comes back to make you feel like a fool. I wish it wasn't something we had to debate on, whether or not we want to put trust in people. I guess that's just how the world works. You risk missing out on something or risk getting your feelings hurt. it's not just the trust you have to let build back with the other person but with yourself. "Am I making a smart decision, did I pick another just like the last?" you mentality get twisted...

I've never really had anything that went to well for me. I've never had trust I've put into someone and it not bite me in my ass. I've never wanted to be that girl that checked phones, pockets, social media and all that. Too much work, but I can understand why a lot do. 

Out of respect of me giving my trust I assume that another would respect me and feel privileged to get it. Trust is something you have to earn. That's where I'm fucking up, I forget not everyone is me. Not everyone has my heart or feels how I feel. I think a lot of us forget from time to time.

Nowadays you have to worry about who wants an Oscar and who wants to be around because they want to be around for you. I've had guys come into my life only because I'm cute not because I have a great personality,  take from me and never give, expect everything under the sun and more, fuck my cousin, and my favorite just be around because I've got my game tight. (when I say I've got my game right and tight I mean I've got my own everything) 

I'll never tell anyone to just go for it and just trust someone because it's been proven that you just can't do that. Sometimes I feel like I was born in the wrong decade. My thoughts on love and life in general just don't fit this generation. I want something real, something that's not in every book or movie screen. I want my own love story that's just for me. Raw+True. I want to be happy, I want to look into someone else's eyes and see happy, see myself happy. Never have a doubt or a question.  Know that what I see is mine and never EVER have to question it. That is how I love, I'll never make another worry. If I'm there, I'm there because I'm in it to win it. I want the championship......not so much a ring and title but the confetti. The feeling, I want that everyday.

 I will tell you though that you have to take some kind of chance. 

We can't always be scared of thinking everyone is out to fuck us over and bleed us dry. It's hard to believe but there are some good ones out there ( although I think some psycho has them all locked up on and island) they're out there. You don't have to put in your all, but dip your toe in. Treat it like swimming, you'll know when your ready to put your head under. They say," its better to love than never to have loved at all." I guess, whoever you are that said that (lol). Fear is what keeps us from a lot of things in life. I setback and let people dog me out simply out of fear and because I thought that's all I should get. You have to take yourself to a level where you know what you want, and how you deserve to get it. No one deserves to be lied to or put through the ringer. Let your strength and fear guide you. Not every situation demands and instant quit, people fuck up. Good people fuck up. Don't let that fear of a mistake make you step back too far from something that could've been that dream.Allow yourself to get out there, slowly. Find someone that's going to be down for you all day. Take time to find something real, something worth it. Someone you can throw your legs over and watch a movie with.

Poem of the Week: Forbidden Fruit

FORBIDDEN FRUIT

By: Brizzly Adams

Instagram: @LongstonHughes

Twitter: @LongstonHughes

If I ever had you, you know I'd be glad to. 

You say I shouldn't but baby girl...I had to. 

I've been dying to have you. 

Kisses in places only you and I know about. 

Words uttered that only we're able to hear. 

The things I'd do to you, I've fantasized about for days on end. 

The ways I'd do them to you. 

It has all played out in my mind in ways you would never imagine. 

And then, my inappropriate daydreams became our intimate reality. 

I would sit for hours at a time envisioning the ways I would indulge in the act of tasting you. 

The ways I would so intimately devour you. 

Never knew I'd ever actually be seconds away from taking your soul from you. 

This was equivalent to the apple for Eve. 

You are my forbidden fruit. 

I'd take a bite out of you day after day, if given the opportunity. 

It has been a moment since I've tasted a woman and it brought me to the brink of of my own release. Your nectar. 

It's drips from the hairs on my chin. 

I indulge in the moments where I am face planted between your beautiful legs as I can hear your breaths shallow. 

Feel your legs begin a slight tremble. 

You're moments away from the ultimate eruption, and that's when I stop. 

Not because I want to, but you made me. 

I respect this. 

As much as I want to continue to devour you until you relinquish every ounce of your sexuality to me. 

I refrain. Allow you to collect yourself, and continue as if nothing has ever transpired. 

To the world, we're merely the best of friends. 

But to us? For us? 

There will always be this tiny moment where sensuality met sexuality and my heart and tongue maneuvered as one in efforts to cause you to explode in a manner as to which you've never experienced before. 

Until next time, this is a note dedicated to my forbidden fruit. 

Poem of the Week

THE FLOATER

By: Cole Livingston-Feggins

Instagram: colesway202

Twitter: dela202 

Where more than just what we claim to be it's as if I'm untouchable nobody knows but she knows 

I call i text we sex i think i got away with it but she knows 

We fuck we drink

We smoke i leave you leave they leave 

we link up again 

& it's late after 12 is where my affection needs & yearns for you 

that body not your mind cause why should my thoughts dwell on what matters to you 

like your favorite color

your favorite movie

your favorite food when deep down inside i don't even care... But she knows

This life i live is fun 

I'm wild 

free 

young enough to do right old enough to catch hell for my actions mature enough to change but to immature to care about what happens 

How can i care 

caring leads to being lost why should i 

Try to love 

when love don't love me 

Blame me for your misrepresentation of a perfect love story 

blame me when you carefully push everyone away 

& if all of the above fails then just blame me